IN THE BEGINNING
I almost cried myself to sleep but I stopped.
I shouldn't.
Crying would only give me puffy eyes and a throbbing headache when I wake up. I know it would help but I'd like to keep everything in, torturing myself every second. Trying to deny and struggle with my contradicting thoughts. I'm not good in making decisions. I pretty much just made a journey of mistakes here and there, faking every smile just so I could face the world with pride. I want the world to see that I can stand up for myself, I can stand up more for my decisions.
I almost made a call but I didn't.
I don't want to bother anyone.